It sucks, there’s a lot of things you wonder about, but too bad you’ll never know.
The calm of the night keeps me more peaceful than you ever have. You’ve caused me pain in so many aspects in my life. And somehow I find the littlest things in you. The things I feel I can’t find in anybody else. Somehow I take you back, I pick up your calls and I text you back everytime. I keep your name in my heart and I keep your face in my head. I keep out picture in my mind. Why do I still love you? Why do I still seek validation in you? I could find so much better but still I seek you. I look for you. I call you. You have some type of hold on me. Something’s got to give. Because I give up. I’m done. I washed my hand with this nonsense. If I do this anymore I will be emotionally dead. I can’t take this with you. I don’t even care about our future right now. I’m really done ..